2022.01.26 02:56 Substantial_Plan_724 Adel Keller velemenyek?
2022.01.26 02:56 Sengorn_Leopard My cat died in my hands, after it saved my life. I am scared.
This is long, but I have a lot on my mind. Today was the worst day in my life.
Lynx was beautiful, partially spotted and partially striped, grey and white.
I just graduated from College may of '21. I had severe anxiety and depression during my time in school, which led to counselling and medication. I was in a very bad place, staff close to me would find me wandering the campus grounds in a confused haze after a bad score on an assignment. At one point I was nearly expelled.
A Christmas about two years ago my sister surprised me at home with a small kitten. I was in such a shock that my hands were numb and I couldn't speak coherently. I instantly loved this kitten. While he did not go to college with me, I lived nearby and was there every weekend. Lynx would always be sure to sleep in whatever part of the house I was in. If I was sleeping in too late- past noon, he would sleep on top my chest or nip at my arm to get me up. If I sat at the computer, he'd crawl atop my keyboard for me to hold him. Having Lynx in my live staved off the anxiety and turned around my depression when the therapy and drugs were ineffective. I graduated and continued on only due to him, with him around I was able to sleep at nights.
When I was a child just a year before entering high school I was on the bus ride home when an ambulance passed the bus. I didn't think much about it until I arrived at the bus stop, where a fire truck nearly ran me over exiting and there was an ambulance beside the porch. My Mother died suddenly of a brain aneurysm and was brain dead by the time she was at the hospital. I did not cry, and I only went through a short period of grieving months later.
My grandmother practically raised me in my rough childhood, and there wasn't anyone on earth I was more close to. While in college she rapidly developed schizophrenia and was sent to a nursing home. My first holiday in college I went to visit my beloved grandmother and she did not know me, and could only speak gibberish while 'singing'. I could barely look in her direction, I was hurt deeply. She died while at home last week, I was able to see her the day before while in a morphine coma. I did not cry at my grandmothers death either, I still have not.
I however developed a paranoia that someone around me would drop dead. I was fearful of it and it occupied my mind multiple times a day. I did always shove those thoughts away. My Father has an aneurism by his ruptured spinal disc, if it bursts he died in minutes. He smokes, they won't do surgery on him for months until he quits. One of our small dogs is quite old, at least 6 years, I worried if I'd find him in my lap dead. My step-grandfather lives with us, he is very old and I worry about him dying.
Then we get to this morning. I was laying in bed enjoying the snow outside my window. It was beautiful. I had my beloved lynx laying on my chest purring as I pet him. It was going to be a wonderful day today, I was clearing out old items from my room and applying to another batch of jobs. I decided it was time to get out of bed, so I sat up. Of course Lynx shot out of bed- excited to receive breakfast. He was sitting on my nightstand as I dressed. As I was clearing clothing off my office chair, I heard Lynx scream very loud. It was the most dreadful sound in my life, It scared me more than anything before and I grew numb with fear. I saw him on the floor, laying on his side.
My fear began to subside, His claws on his feet were stuck in the carpet, I quickly bent down to free them. I did so and noticed his legs were stiff, but his wail was continuing and he didn't move after being freed. This time I was terrified and couldn't think. I opened my bedroom door with one hand and yelled with all the effort I could muster dad, mom, come. My yell wasn't very loud. My dad came first limping fast as he could, when he got to my cat he suggested he was choking, so I went to look. Lynx was still yelling, but his tongue was hanging out the side of his mouth, I pried open his jaws and grabbed his tongue in an attempt to clear his airway, but he was entirely limp. He was no longer screaming that one long scream.
My dad told me he was gone. I grabbed my chair's legs and pulled it towards me, my head pressed into the backrest. I couldn't speak. My stepmother got down beside me and put her arms around me, I couldn't look at my Lynx I couldn't let go of the chair. My father asked me what I wanted to do, I couldn't talk. Father buried Lynx, when I managed to get off the floor I just crawled into bed and spent nearly the entire day cycling through bouts of sobbing and just laying with my eyes closed.
I've had dreams where Lynx died, due to the fears I mentioned earlier. I kept going thinking this has to be just another dream right? If I fall asleep and wake up again, Lynx will be there. I did eventually leave bed before dinner, but I couldn't speak to anyone. I kept looking around for my beloved Lynx. I sat in my usual sitting room chair and several times my hands strayed to the cat's toy. Each time I touched it I retracted my hand instantly as though burned, and felt a sharp pain in my chest.
My father, stepmother, and step grandfather acted normal, they were even cheerful and laughed as if nothing had happened. This contributed to my fleeting doubts if Lynx did die, but I never tried calling for him. I knew he was dead. Many times today I kept wondering, what if he was still alive- but was in some coma? He was slightly over weight, what if he was buried alive? The thought is so incredibly painful to me.
As I sit here at 1:00AM the house feels so empty. My bedroom has cat stands, cat toys, bins of food, and a litter box. I keep seeing movement out of the corner of my eyes and look- I expect to see lynx sitting there cleaning himself but it never is. I can't get to sleep, and I've spent hours on the computer reading multiple pages on "sudden feline death".
I am so very scared, constantly on the verge of sobbing again. I keep thinking about getting another cat- but then I say to myself "never again", terrified that it will die. Main coons have a 33% chance of sudden death one place said; a breed I wanted. Right now I am thinking, when I wake up tomorrow Lynx will be there, right?
I am in pain and I am scared.
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2022.01.26 02:56 chubby_pancakess [gen5] phase something but happy for me this one's male
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2022.01.26 02:56 moosedung Looking for help with a boil, have no access to medical care at the moment.
I (M32) have developed an abscess or boil on my left cheek, its about the size of a small medium marble. It has grown and hasnt come to a head, and its been about 2 weeks. It feels like a saggy water balloon at the moment, and doesn't really hurt. No fever or signs of infection. I believe it needs to be drained. BUT, i am currently in a remote part of Kenya and there is no real medical resources for me to visit in the area. I think im gonna have to do it myself.
Everything ive looked up online says not to do it myself, but im not sure if i have any other option at the moment. Does anyone have any Tips or Tricks on popping this thing as sterile and safely as possible? I have a general first aid kid with me with sterile gauze and antiseptic wipes and stuff like that. Any help would be appreciated.
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2022.01.26 02:56 thesmaya Good Morning Quote ❤
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2022.01.26 02:55 Halsieg Final Fantasy 6 & Chrono Trigger fans?
As far as I know, there are no good poseable figures for either of these games. If you're still reading this, you probably agree these games are in the S-tier RPGs of all time. They'll never be made to the caliber they deserve to be, so can we as a community come together to make reddit definitive editions of them? Looking for custom artists, fans and enthusiastic SNES gamers. Let's make these happen!
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2022.01.26 02:55 KekMelon 580 hours in and i still suck and im not getting better at this game
long story short i put a lot of time into the game (580-ish) because i find it fun (sometimes) but the main issue being i suck really bad and it gets to the point where i just die and cant do anything else but feed all game and cause my team to lose and it really is making it hard to even have fun in this game. im at the point of my life where i have a job and i gotta keep payments on my car insurance and whatnot so its not like i have all the time in the world anymore like i used to as a teenager, the question is do i even bother playing this game anymore. im not having fun for the most part but i put so much time into the game that i feel like it would have been all for nothing. ive watched multiple videos and read all sorts of tips on how to get better and whatnot but nothing is helping. im kinda running out of options here and i dont know what to do.
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2022.01.26 02:55 shreethar Well, she was the only person I could talk to and who understood me. Now, I am in need to talk to someone who understands me but I can't talk to her because we took a break and I don't think I should message her anytime soon even when I want to.
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2022.01.26 02:55 Glittering-Falcon744 Should there be ovenbreak mechanics in kingdom
Is it just me or does other people think that there should either be pets in kingdom or magic candies like in ovenbreak,that boost a cookies skill and power.
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2022.01.26 02:55 The_Zee_Bee Day 8. I pride myself and think of myself as a man of faith—as here’s a drive into deep left field by Castellanos, it will be a home run, and so that’ll make it a 4–nothing ballgame—I don’t know if I’m going to be putting on this headset again.
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2022.01.26 02:55 Potentialo_o Is this storage drive good? and compatible with my pc
I have no clue tbh
My build https://pcpartpicker.com/usepotentialo_o/saved/#view=ZyN28d
Hard drive https://pcpartpicker.com/product/MHPfrH/seagate-internal-hard-drive-st1000nm0033
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